I am feeling blue as you might expect.
And sad at the loss of the oldest generation of my family She that lived through the Great Depression, World War II, the Eisenhower years, Kennedy, the sixties, Nixon, the 80's, 90's and the first decade of new century. She worked as an engineer when women did not hold such jobs, working on aspects of everything from advanced bazooka's, satellite launches, projects Mercury, Gemini and Apollo. She took care of her mother, of my mom, stayed on top of politics, read a great deal and inspired me to be the person I am today.
I still need to go to Chicago to take care of the estate...but air fairs to replace the cancelled flight are in the thousands for round trip...beyond my ability to spend at year's end.
I have few photos of my family (my aunt did not want me going upstairs where my mom and at one time a long time ago my dad and myself) and none of Aunt Ann, or I would post it here.
Her help led to a home in Oak Park, despite my dad's limited Post Office salary. It led to attending a school that excelled academically and in the arts, producing scientist who have contributed to making the world a better place, stars of the more human sort, and inventors of theatre and film technologies.
She insisted I go to college, and was supportive of both my masters programs and the PhD I earned just before her death. She believed in me.
And now the only generation that really cares about my success or failure, the deep roots my family have in Chicago (back to just after Fort Dearborn) and the home I have made here in Nevada.
I am very much in need of friends, students, acting and love.